Inspiration

wow- life is just a roller coaster! it just is one that never stops!! I'm in San Antonio right now watching 5 of my sisters 6 kids while she is on a little vacay with her hubby. It is crazy.....so many kids :) but really it's fun!

BUT I MISS MY BOYS!!!

This is the first time i have left them, and by the time i get home it will have been for over a week! That part is killing me, just a tad! (or more!) lucky for me i have the most amazing husband that just takes over without skipping a beat! (oh, except for the parts where he has called when spencer splits his chin open, jared gets a black eye, spencer gets a bloody nose, spencer finds the food coloring and spills it EVERYWHERE... you know, all the normal stuff! :0) really, he is wonderful! it was kind of weird leaving and not having to tell him what's going on, schedules or anything. One of the little benefits of not having a job!

But my time away has been and is good. i think i needed it. I had kind of gotten into this attitude where i was simply viewing life in a "something's got to give" kind of perspective. That's not so good, i've decided. while it's still true. really, something has got to happen/change. there is just so much that i am feeling overwhelmed with that i could almost burst! but i know it's mostly just my attitude that needs the adjustment. yes, from an outlookers perspective, there is a lot to consider. i just have to remember that there is One above that knows what our little family can handle, and we are handling it!

it's funny to me to see how life cycles. you can read about it in the scriptures or just look at life now. my emotions are crazy ----

(thanks to the 'lil one inside me--- that i haven't even officially announced on here!!!! geez, i'm a terrible mother! i do love you baby! and one day when you read this and wonder why it took me so long to share the joyous news with the world, i will just have to explain it all!!! i am soooo EXCITED for baby #3- coming the end of the year, or maybe the beginning of 2011. my official Dday is jan8- but i'm counting on the fact that my other 2 were 3 weeks early....so who knows. we may get a baby for christmas, or maybe for new years!! or really, the way my contractions have been going the last week, we might just have a fall baby, but let's pray not!)

anyway, while here i have had a chance to read a few more blogs then i normally do at home..... and i can i just say i LOVE the inspiration that comes from others!!!!! here are just a few examples:

THIS POST is from my cousin marcy. she is probably on my list of top 5 most AMAZING women ever!!! she started this collection of "comfort scriptures" when she was in the midst of a painful divorce. She still uses them now that she is happily remarried.....and i love to read them too! right now, i'm just LOVING this one:

“We must continue to believe, continue to have faith, continue to pray and plead with heaven, even if we feel for a time our prayers are not heard and that God has somehow gone away. He is there. Our prayers are heard. And when we weep He and the angels of heaven weep with us…. Regarding our earthly journey, the Lord has promised: ‘I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up.’ That is an everlasting declaration of God’s love and care for us, including—and perhaps especially—in times of trouble…. First, God has not forgotten you, and second, the Savior has been where you have been, allowing Him to provide for your deliverance and your comfort….They [the prophets] remembered their covenants, they disciplined themselves, and they knew that we must live the gospel at all times, not just when it is convenient and not just when things are going well. Indeed, they knew that the real test of our faith and our Christian discipleship is when things are not going smoothly. That is when we get to see what we’re made of and how strong our commitment to the gospel really is…. ‘let us cheerfully do all things that lie in our power’…. I bless you in the name of the Lord that God does love you, does hear your prayers, is at your side, and will never leave you….I testify that bad days come to an end, that faith always triumphs, and that heavenly promises are always kept.”

(Jeffrey R. Holland, “Lessons from Liberty Jail,” Ensign, Sep 2009, 26–33)

Then, there is THIS POST from my step-sister, Caitlin. If you are pregnant, are going to be, or have been, you should read it. Especially if you don't love being pregnant (i'm not going to mention any names... :) It is just uplifting and puts it into perspective. I do wonder if she had pregnancies like mine if she would feel the same way.....but i've decided it doesn't matter. Everyone's different. And i do need to TRY SO MUCH HARDER to enjoy this time. because it doesn't last forever. and there are people i love and admire who would do just about ANYTHING to be able to experience pregnancy- even if it hurts or is hard! i've got to learn to embrace it...

There are also 2 other blogs that just make me happy. The color and creativity they bring to this world is WONDERFUL! They are inspiring me to think outside of the box and make the best of what i have around me.

THIS POST from Brooke at All Things Thrifty Home Decorating. I'm not a decorator. I don't even really try. But some of the furniture refinishing she does just makes me WANT to do it. I think i will one day (i know, terrible way to put a goal!) but really, her ideas are AMAZING! THIS POST is from a wedding she went to. I just LOVE LOVE LOVE the flowers and color EVERYWHERE. It just makes me smile. I think i'm far too lazy to ever pull it off at a function, but it is BEAUTIFUL!!

and lastly, there is Ana, from Knock-Off Wood. Oh my goodness. If i had the tools and time to build furniture, i think my husband and children would become severely neglected!! it looks life fun to do. she has soooo many pieces i would love to build. but it was THIS RECENT POST that made me so excited. i know, i'm a nerd. i wish my house could be so organized. and maybe, one day, i will live in a house that was built after 1911, in a world that actually needed closets. because i think that is the answer to all my problems---i need closets that hold things!! (just kidding, kind of) i personally would NEVER do the bubble gum pink, but the whole idea just brings sunshine into my world.

so, that's just a whole lot of randomness for you. but really, go check those post out. Inspiring people.......the world is full of them!!!

First Day of School!!

My baby boy started preschool this week. He is sooooo BIG!! it's kind of freaking us out a little bit. The first day was monday (he goes 3 days a week) and they had me go with him. It was kind of a meet your teacher and class day. So today was really his official first day.

it went a little something like this:

get up and not be excited at all. Time to go- we walk outside and he runs away, refusing to get into the car. i pick him up, strap him in his seat and we go anyway. get there. he refuses to get out of the car. i take him in with tears in his eyes. I stand at the doorway. he begs me not to go. I tell him i'll stay until everyone gets there (which the last kid happened to be 15 minutes late!) i sit on a chair outside his door. he can see my feet, so he's ok. he starts an art project. i move over a chair. he can't see my feet anymore, so he starts freaking out. i tell him it's time for me to go. then i tell the teacher she's going to have to close and lock the door so he won't run after me. she does. i go home.

we come to pick him up. he LOVED IT!!!!! he was all smiles. His teacher even took a picture for me of him participating with a huge smile on his face.

i'm reassured that he needs to be in preschool. we have this same situation every time he goes to sunbeams. hopefully we will see some much needed improvement soon!!!

* i will eventually back date all our summer happenings. but for now, this is current!